Lately I have had this impending feeling that there is something I need to do.. Something I have to do.. Something that needs to get off my chest and now.. Something between me and someone else that has not been finished or atleast in my heart it hasn’t….But how can I deal with this said feeling when I’m not even sure what it is exactly. ok. So i do have a feeling i know what it is.. Its been hovering over me since summer started and no matter how badly I want it to go away it won’t.. It’s like this feeling.. You know the one you got when you were a little child and you just saw something on the T.V. that you really wanted.. Like you wanted it so bad you would do anything for it.. Thats the feeling I’ve been having.. and it is combined with this other feeling that in order for me to get what I want I have to take it for myself. but taking it for myself is a risk.. because like a kid that really wants something usually the first person that said child must go to is their parents and they have to ask their parents will you get this for me.. Thats the risk they will either have to deal with their parents screaming at them or even daring to ask for it.. Or relish in the approval of the parent to get this special toy… Now what I want is far from a shiney new toy but I used this metaphor to make an example of what I must do… I must either ask this said person or not.. Not asking this said person could make things worse for me because I will always have this feeling… but asking can result in two different scenerios.. they could say no and I’d be hurt at first but later I would get over it.. But they could say yes and I would be able to relish in getting what I wanted.. I would be happy..
So what will I do now the choice is mine…