So i sit here with the realization that I have about a week left of my freshman year of college! 1 more week!! But I can’t help but to think of all the good and all the bad that has happened this year!! It has been such a crazy crazy year.  I have had so many good friends come in to my life in the most unexpected ways. Things started out with a bang. Because of preview (our freshman orientation) I met a few people that I could call my friends for the first few weeks of school. But eventually found another group that I felt I could be myself around with no judgments. Then there was the whole roommate ordeal.. I HAD TO GET OUT OF THAT CRAZY BITCHES ROOM!!! and I did which brought me to the utmost amazing group.. 3 FW.. 3rd floor walsh! Susannah and Jew were the most amazing people I had ever met… when they found out I was moving onto their floor they were more than happy to help me!! A few girls,  boyfriend, and a car packed to capacity and I was moved from walsh to viragh in little less then a hour! I remember that first night we had a blast in zoe (Jew n Susannah’s room). Before long I had a new roommate, Large eyes. I was so excited to have a new roommate and not have to live in my huge room in walsh all by myself! Me and Large eyes got along great there really was nothing we ever fought about and never ne awkward silences. Pretty soon every waking minute was spent as a group the 3 fw which often  also included a few girls from the 2nd floor.. Mar.. Shell.. and Broken Arm..<— Hahhahaha couldn’t help myself!!.. We experienced many different things together.. Such as late night movie nights, Girls night which included going to the movies then followed by steak  n shake which then followed another movie at 3fw!, American idol/Grey Anatomy/lie to me  nights, crazy dances in the old caf.. where things were realized about a certain relationship, and honestly the list just goes on from there. These girls are my rock and my support in times when I need them the most. Susannah has always been there for me.. she knows her JC very well and when JC isn’t jumping around telling people she’s balding or something to that extent she is just not happy and something is wrong. I cant begin to tell you how many times susannah has taken me to the side and said listen I know something is not right lets talk and lets talk now.. Susannah has gotten me through some very very tough times her at shc! She has been there when others walked away. others that I depended on for support.. she was there and I love her for it!

Then there is Jew.. JEW JEW JEW!! O my goodness.  I cannot even begin to describe Jew to you! I see a lot of myself in JEW as far as the energy goes she is a bouncing ball of energy just like me.. She is a unique individual.. one that I have never experienced before but am so glad to have experienced! I honestly cannot put my finger on a time when Jew was just down and out for no good reason at all.. I mean yeah she’s been upset before but she had a damn good reason for it! When I say shes never been down i mean she doesn’t really ever let the little things get to her like I have a tendency of doing.. In my time of need she has always been there ready to make a joke about something that has absolutely nothing to do with the situation but some how manages to make me happy!

Then comes Large eyes.. now large eyes is probably reading this right thinking dammit she wasn’t there when I got the nickname she can’t use it.. That’s LE for you..I guess I could call her roomie.. hahaha that will work.. Roommate is wow she is just very original! At first I thought she hated me because of her tendency to be sarcastic with me… never really got the sarcasm at first.. I’m not to good with sarcasm..hahaha.. but roomie has this ability to stand by your side when things get crazy.. she will not let anyone hurt her friends while she is around.. I would like to call her the mother of the group but that wouldn’t be so.. ok she is she is like the strict mother of the group! She is the one when Susannah is telling us we can jump off  a balcony, she is saying are you crazy get of that balcony before u kill yourself.. Or “JC could you talk any louder”. She is the one putting us into our places..

shell, Oh Shell… shell is the person I go to when I need attention but not from a thousand viewers or a few other girls just when I need somebody to lean on.. she is there.. I love her for it.. But she is also the one who tends to come into the convo at the most inconvenient times.. and has no clue whats going on.. and then we have to explain things to her.. but its fun..

Mar.. O I love me some Mar.. Mar has been my guardian angel.. Literally she is my guardian angel but you would only get that if you went on SHAPE!! Hahhahaahahhahahaha.. but before that Mar helped guide me and helped me to understand what I’m feeling and why I am feeling it and what i need to do about it.. she loves me for me.. and excepts my individuality and I can’t help but love her for it!

Broken Arm— I love me some broken arm.. broken arm knows the most craziest thing to make me feel better.. She slept with my blanket once apparently its a really comfy blanket… I have no objections.. but BA <— hahaha.. Sorry I have the attention span of a cocker spaniel!.. NE way BA is unique and has a really amazing ability to lock her self out..

ok so I just described for you 3fw my girlies.. but i failed to tell you about my guy friends.. My guy friends with a few other girls came into my life this semester due to a “LOVE CONNECTION” between me and one of the other guys.. But I am so thankful for that instance because with out it I don’t think we would have ever come together like we needed to. From what I understand they all thought we were a bunch of crazy obnoxious girls before and had no intention of being our friends.. haha.. ok so I am not really gonna make up ne nick names for these individuals.. I’m just going to talk about each and pretty sure they will no who they are..

I’m going to start off with the one who helped me join the groups together.. Me and him were together for a good 3 months.. I adored him because he made me feel like it was ok to be me.. He helped me to accept who I am and be glad I am an original.. He was one of the best guy friends but at the same time was my boyfriend.. I have learned looking back that he was most likely put into my life to introduce me to some of the other amazing people that are his friends..

The next guy is special because.. He is there when I needed to talk about things that were on my mind.. he really upset me at first because he had all these code words he said when I was around and made derogatory remarks  around me.. but  he ended up being one of my best guy friends like really and truly!  I honestly do NOT know how we became such good friends.. maybe it was after SHAPE.. I think SHAPE did it.. I mean its kind of hard to not be friends with someone who dresses in drag and calls himself bobby jo jo bobby! HAHAHA……. OmB! But know every time I have talked to him he always gets serious and tells me.

haha so Im beginning to realize that its going to be almost impossible not to figure out who I am talking about but what ever.

the next guy I haven’t really known as long as everyone else.. but some how made a impression on him before I even realized it. Because he was there when I was down the most.. he just wanted to make me feel better because he knew that a sad JC was no fun.. Apparently I had the ability to make him laugh.. now when it comes to me its very hard not to make people laugh.. but this one was different because he was so quite and when you looked across the table and saw him laughing you felt like maybe you had stepped into another dimension or something.. it was a little bizarre but at the same time it felt good to know that no matter who the person was I could make them smile! and I am glad that it did..

haha this guy we just have an all together crazy relationship.. he has always goofed with me and tried to trick me into thinking or saying things that I didn’t want to say.. Betcha didn’t think I caught on to that… I did!! but he also has the ability to turn my frown upside down.. i mean I cant even give that guy the look any more.. because as soon as i try he starts making goofy faces at me.. hahaha

ok so im just going to combine these to together because i knew them from middle school and high school.. one is very hard to understand and at times I think he might want to pluck my eye balls out! but other times he just seems to be an all around great guy.. and the other one is goofy and has always been a very good friend to me.. I mean we got confirmed together that has to mean something

ok Im goin to combine these to together to because when I think of one of them I think of the other.. these are the girlies amongst the guys and i sympathize for them! really I do.. But they are both very sweet and both are very welcoming and accepting and I adore them for that

Finally I cant forget snoopy.. I haven’t really spent that much time with snoopy lately i don’t know why i just haven’t.. but snoopy has always been there when I needed him most.. so what more can I ask for..? he has helped me to try and understand the male gender.. however i don’t really think he completely understands it!! HAHAHA..

I really hope i didn’t leave anyone out.. but if I did I care for all of my friends and I am so thankful to have met all of you..I have had different experiences with each and everyone of you.. Some good.. Some bad.. But whatever the case may be I still adore each and everyone of you for all of your unique personalities and abilities.. Thank you all for having a special place in my heart and thank you all for all being their individually for me.. even though at times I don’t even think ya’ll realize you were there for me. My one piece of advice to all of you is no matter what happens in life.. always look back on the good times and try your hardest to ignore the bad times.. because we learn some of our most valuable lessons from the bad times and move on.. I wish all of you a wonderful summer and hope that all of you plan to keep in touch.. via facebook/text/phone or ever coming to visit! Hope exams go well for all and that this year ends on a very good note! Love you All
JC

Wow.. so I was definitely just searching around for some quotations the other day because I was feeling down and I needed something to lift my spirits. Did this work you might ask?  Not exactly LoL. But for some reason I put it in my dashboard to use. I thought is was weird why did I pic this qoutation.. where I’m at right now is no where close to a fairytale.. If anything I’m living an anti-fairytale life. Nothing is going my way. But thats when I began to realize who cares. Why do we constantly strive for this picture perfect life.. Is it because movies and books tell us thats what we want and thats what we deserve? Don’t get me wrong I think everyone deserves a fairtale perfect life.. but thats not exactly the best life.. If everything is perfect .. if everything went our way..then how could we learn. Some of my most valueable lessons in life have been learned from my most painful experiences.

For example: My heart was torn apart when I was 14 years old by my first love. He promised me the world then left me hanging with no explination. I havent talked to him since. But that one experience taught me that you really never no what is going to happen in life. At one point in your life you might feel like your going to be with that one person for the rest of your life.. but then you look back 5 years later and laugh. I cried myself to sleep for a good year because of that boy. That very instance taught me to guard my heart and only give it to the deserving. That was not a happy ever after but i learned from it.

but as the qoutation says every once in a while a fairy tale comes along into our lives. We thank God for this very moment. We pray that he will never let it go. Some people gets this fairy tale.  But what I really want to the reader to get from this is your life is what you make it. If you stay away from stupid drama and focus on what you want there will be no stopping you..