Lol .. OK considering everyone who reads this blog know who I’m talking about I m not literally calling him a dork.. Lets just say a certain someone is trying to set a certain two people up and he is doing it in a really creepy way which is making these two people a little uncomfortable.. SO Please snoopy turn the creepy matchmaker mode down a bit.. Its pretty weird.. LOVE YA TO DEATH BUT IT’s A Little creepy…. I know you mean well but lets not do it anymore LOL!

Topic Change!! So Im super excited because the whole gang  is getting together again for a movie slash cook out slash pizza fest.. I kind of want to make a name for it and I shall I I shall make little posters to put on my wall advertising it lol Just for fun really maybe Ill make one for everyone going lol that would be cute like a little paper advertising unknown name bash with pics of all of us and hamburgers and movies and Pizza’s good idea.. hmmmm.. what else shall i do for said party.. maybe  set the whole living room up all fun and cozy and stuff… wow Im going to need to take the day off for said party LOL!!! hmm.. i get a little carried away with parties but its going  to be un blastay thats jc spanish for a blast!! HAHAHAHAHAHA! Ok Im super happy and being super silly so i shall sign off for now.. this is JC signing off!!!

ps: I have a feeling 2009 is going to be amazing!!

So I was facebook chatting with snoppy last night and i was ranting about how i over react to all the small things in life.. Like for instance is certain someone is acting weird I automatically think that they hate me.. LOL but this is mainly in my head.. In person I’m not as dramatic.. Snoopy said its because I have acting in my blood.. I agree because there have been timed when I have been just randomly coming up with scenarios.. nothing really pertaining to my life but just random never could happem in a million years scenarios and then bam i start pretend crying with no problem at all like lagit tears are falling from my EYES!! NO LIE… And that when I came to the slow realization.. that my life is a movie and i always thinking of the best way to play the role of myself…and its true.. I’m alway overthinking and thinking well what could possiably happen if I said this or what could possiably happen if I do this??? and its because I want the best in life and in order for me to have the best in life I have to play over in my head the next best thing to say or the next best thing to do! Im always saying to myself before i say something is this honestly something that Jennifer would say or do? its crazy i know but i want everything to go over exactly like they were intended to..

Like I have said lately I am completely in love with this Artist Lenka.. Its really really good lyrics and I can really relate to it…

I really think this is how I am my biggest fear is that I will be hurt like I was in my last relationship… Not many people really know what happened with my last relationship but basically we both really liked eachother and then I guess the guy i was dating at the time freaked out because he had never been so serious about someone and so he just stopped talking to me and I called him one day and he refused to talk to me.. He didn’t even have the decentcy to break it off just left it like it was.. This tore me up in side and It took me about a year and a half to get over him.. after we unofficially broke up I still would go visit his little sister in gulfport and I could tell he still had feelings for me as well but that was all that was left of that after a year and a half I finally got over him stopped visiting his little sister because i knew the only reason I was going to see her was a way of going to see him…And I knew I would never get over him as long as his family was still in my life.. So ever since then I have been seriously protective of my heart.. So now if anyone was too take my heart I would want them to be careful with it like this song. The only way I could possiably give all of my heart would be if I knew that they wouldn’t let me fall…. So yeah im ranting once again about my heart and my feelings. But what ev’s! You all seriously must think I’m an emmotional time bomb.. Just ticking away till one day I explode and .. ok im done lol

OK yeah not one of my most original titles.. But I’m sorry this is exactly how I feel right now.. EXHAUSTED! But I’m really feeling the need to blog a bit. So Christmas just passed and I had a pretty amazing Christmas..except for two minor things.. I got a phone call from my father bitching about tuition and how i didn’t come down to Florida for Christmas!!! Yeah So i was feeling pretty down because my father has lost pretty much all of a relationship we had since he got divorced to my step mom… Apparently my step mom was the one holding my dad together making sure I was called every Sunday as agreed when my parents divorced.. she was the one that helped pay for my plane tickets to get me there and back… So now that they are no longer together my dad pretty much sucks at his job as a father… I know that’s a really horrible thing to say but when it comes to my dad lately iv been the parent and its not fair….. But on the bright side me and my step dad have been getting along really well!!!! After this whole episode i went out to the dinning room where he was sitting and I told what had been going on and he basically told me that I had done nothing wrong and that Id done all i could… which made me feel really good he also explained to me that he was always there for me and that his family was always there for me..which the sad thing is  I think his family cares about me more than my dad’s family or my mom’s family does.. They really honestly are aways happy to see me and they are always happy to help me out in any way that they can.. which is nice..

Next topic.. there is a new person in my life in which came about really unexpectedly we just kind of hit it off.. and I think we both like each other which is always nice… But we both agree that we need to get to know each other a little better although we both enjoy talking to each other and he has a way of making anything bad going on in my life seem not so bad.. its nice.. but we are getting to know each other for now.. Which is good because the last relationship I was in we jumped into it after knowing each other for a day.. and that ended in my heart being broke in to a million peices so im ok with waiting it out!

Ok so im seriously close to concing out right now so im going to leave you with  a artists i was recently introduced to LEnka….

How is it my last post was so sad……. but this post has me in high spirits.. Life Comes at you unexpectively but if ive learned anything its that as long as you trust in that higher power all your dreams will come true! I’ve been in such a funk lately and i want to apologize and thank all those who have been by my side through it all!  But no i think that song looking for love in all the wrong places pretty much explains it.. I kept telling myself i needed to like the certain person because they were what i wanted and I was so wrong… SO readers im over a certain boy that all of you know ive been crazy about for a few months now.. he found some one that best fits him and Im happy for him.. I honestly dont think i liked him though strange as that is… I guess I felt I needed to like him but honestly no i never had to nor wanted to.. now im much better and feel much better life is looking pretty good from this point of view

i dotn know what it is about me that seems to be a walking talking time bomb… what is it.. I cant seem to keep things simple.. Like everytime some one new comes into my life its like i dont know… i feel like im just being plain silly.. i just feel like nothing works the way i want it to.. You see i plan things out in my headon how things should go about… and more then likely it just blows up in my face every single time! I know im silly planning out how things happen.. would u believe that the only way my life works the way iwant it to is when i least expect it.. Like i told u i plan things out in my head… how things should work out and about 99.9% of the time they dont even work out that way.. the .1% only happen once… i had been expecting for me and this guy i was talking to to be going out any day…then my mom tells me that i have to go away for the weeked right when i was expecting for me and this guy to start dating right…. well then i go away for the weekend and meet this really great guy and little to my surprise we shortly started going out after that.. never expected didnt plan it out… and it worked out they way i would have wanted it to.. lately i seem to be planning out how things should work out… and each time they take a terrible change… I just dont know what it is about me… what is it???

I can’t seem to get to you,

We both are going through the same stuff.

You thought you were once in love, I did too.

But if there is one thing I’ve learned love is tuff.

So close your eyes and let them go.

Then Breath in and breath out.

You loved them I know.

Now is time to take a different route.

Hopefully that road will bring you to me.

but if you find another thats fine.

Your now free.

but let me remind you, you could be mine.

So fly away my love.

Fly to another place.

Fly my dove

Where ever you go i hope you spred your grace.

And if your freedom doesn’t bring you to my side.

just knowing everything is fine.

youll make this all worth the ride.

I will gladly step out of the line.

But if your freedom brings you into my life.

I will give to you all they neglected.

I will erase all of the strife.

these words will then be reflected.

The time has come

what will it be.

no choice is dumb.

Just as long as you can finally be free.

So fly my dove.

Fly away.

But carry my love.

no matter if you go or stay.

So why do i do this…. I get so high hoped over someone and they end up crushing my heart into a million pieces.. With out even realizing it… I dont blame them they dont no what they do to me.. It started out with one guy I really had a good feeling about us and then next week he is all excited because he is going to ask the girl he likes out.. and im sitting there just thinking to myself I had him then he got away.. This is how all of my relationships go.. they start out as something then turn to nothing.. Which is what i think is happening with the most recent guy.. Which I had a feeling it would happen.. I going to end up being some bitter old lady because of them.. So i have to decide what my action tonight will be to calm myself.. curl up in a ball and cry for a while.. blare some music and cry myself to sleep.. or jsut let it go and be happy noing that maybe im overacting and the reason none of these guys worked out was because none of them were good enough for me.. I like the last one.. but the music and crying feels good too…

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Okay so this week is finals week and I only have three more to go.. I feel really good about my Biology Final.. ANd i should be studying for logic right now but im not really feeling it and this feels better So this is based off of my last post bahh humbug.. Its miraculous how fast christmas hit me. As my friend S said once i spent time with friends adn the whole early christmas thing everything got better.. we went to Bellingrath Gardens and it was alot of fun.. People around us were cracking up!!! Then after we went back to M’s house and open presents and watched Elf and just had a few good laughs.. and the best part of it was the time we all spent together The presents were all very sweet and special which is more than i could ever want.. Thats when I realized that christmas to me has never been about the presents it was about the people behind the presents.. Christmas seems to bring the best out of people… ANd now ever since I have been in Happy christmas Mood!!! I also was recently asked by my mom if I minded giving up one of my old digital cameras to a teenager in a shelter that wanted one but her church couldn’t afford to get it for her.. and I told my mom of course.. And honestly thats when I saw the other good part of Christmas….A time to give to those who r less fortunate.. I would give my old digital camera if i knew it ment some other girl could feel the same way I felt when I got it… If not a lot more happy then I was.. Seeing as Im use to getting stuff like this for christmas.. But im ffeeling really good about christmas this year and im pretty psyched..And also it is snowing in New Orleans so im really hoping the snow will be coming our way .. I haven’t seen snow in 10 years!!!… I have a feeling this will be the best christmas EVER!!!So with that  i will leave you with my fav band relient k and their amazingness.. FYI I saw them last sunday in concert pretty awesome!!